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When I was 19, and then again when I was 20, I had this very complicated thing with a guy who I kind of still think of as the perfect kind of guy for me – if circumstances had been different. Maybe it’s just stupid, thinking like that, but I can’t help it. Finding someoneContinue reading “Chapter 9: The right kind of experiences”

Okay, so maybe I’m not such an awful driver after all. I had my driving test yesterday and I passed. Except for some trouble with the backing into a parking space, everything went smoothly. Afterwards, my driving instructor even said that the inspector that I had was one of the pickiest. But I made itContinue reading “Chapter 8: Fake it til you make it”

In the middle of January the fall semester ended. I had a huge exam in hydrology and hydrogeology and am still amazed that I really made it through that course. With quite a good grade aswell. I’m not as stupid as I feel sometime. Since then, I have spent my days doing almost exclusively twoContinue reading “Chapter 7: The weeks before”

One summer day a few years ago, I went to the blood bank to donate, and was called into the donor room by a young, beautiful med. student who introduced himself as Magnus. That brief meeting, with him taking my blood and me telling him about my Spanish studies, ended up as the first chapterContinue reading “Chapter 6: Becoming one of my characters”

Sometimes I get the feeling that I just have to write. Or, it’s more like a need to express, become larger than myself. It’s a need as strong as hunger and thirst. It’s overwhelming. But the last few years, I haven’t had the time and opportunity to grab on to that feeling. Because the feelingContinue reading “Chapter 5: The feeling”

How do you choose a name? That’s a tricky one. I have spent a lot of time thinking about names in my life. When I was about 13 or so, I started keeping a list of all the pretty or cool or just good names that I knew or heard of. Mostly because I likeContinue reading “Chapter 4: The importance of a name”

One might think: Isn’t it enough that she’s chosen to write a blog in a language that she doesn’t know, all about herself? What the hell is this thing about chapters? But, you see, there is a thought behind that aswell. I rarely do things randomly. In that sense, I guess I’m not a very excitingContinue reading “Chapter 3: Some words on the disposition”

I was born in Sweden to a Finnish mother and a Swedish father. This makes my mothertounge Finnish and my first words were in Finnish. But having grown up in Sweden, my strongest launguage is Swedish. What language I’ll speak when I’m old and overridden with dementia, I don’t know, but either way, English isContinue reading “Chapter 2: A warning before takeoff”

We’re in the beginning of February. A new year. Maybe the last, ever, or just as long into the future as the Maya indians saw fit to predict. Anyway, 2012. The year that I turn 24. The year I could have gotten my bachellor’s degree in geography from Stockholm university. Or, even, the year thatContinue reading “Chapter 1: This is where it starts”

At the age of 23 I realised that I had put my life on hold. It was nothing that I woke up to and just knew, but more a realisation that came to me slowly, without me really noticing. I wasn’t doing anything with my life. Not in the sense that I wasn’t waking up everyContinue reading “An introduction of sorts”