I’ve been hurting people lately. Inadvertently, due to thoughtlessness and miss-communication. And in my attempts to clean it up, I put my foot in my mouth and make the mess even worse, making the hurt spread. I haven’t been able to sleep for more than a week.
So, now I’m avoiding people. It feels like the safest thing to do. In my exhaustion and absentmindedness from all the studying I’m doing, I can’t be trusted to behave around people with feelings and issues of their own. I’m an elephant in an English garden and until the last of April, I will not be able to do anything about that.
I sit by computers and read articles instead. And I study geodatabases, explore the data my teachers have provided the class with. I play around with colors. There is a visual part of GIS work, an aesthetic, that just appeals to me. It’s not only crunching numbers. It is also appearance. Room to have an eye for detail. Aren’t they lovely, the colors?
(Well, there are some issues with projection incompatibility and lack of metadata – oaks can’t grow in lakes, even if they are really really old – but hey, who ever said that anything in life was unproblematic?)
Katja Malmborg 