An unfortunate combination of circumstances has placed me in a position where I have felt forced to choose to enroll on three courses at once: two full-time university courses (the obligatory thesis prep course for my master’s and a method course in landscape ecology, which is what I want to do my thesis on), and an evening class in French (because in Burkina Faso, where I want to do my field work, they speak French and not English).
In a way, it might be very tactical and smart – I’m spending every waking moment working toward the same goal, namely, to turn my thesis into something good. But, in another way, it might also be the most stupid thing I’ve ever committed to (and this is coming from someone with a long history of making poor decisions). I’ve already complained about being tired, exhausted, completely drained. What I should be doing is decrease the number of commitments that I have, not take on a bunch of new ones.
Well, things are the way they are and I have only myself to blame if I fall apart completely. Crash like a Malaysian airplane in the middle of the ocean, thousands of kilometers off course.
I will have to remove anything excessive in my life. No TV, unless it’s to help me sleep. No trying experimental recipes. No late night parties. No surfing around on Spotify, randomly listening to recommended or not recommended tracks. No small talk with random people in the Geoscience building. No getting lost in emotional roller-coasters. Studying, exercising and sleeping well. Everything stable and ordered and on track. The coming five weeks will have to be pure focus.
Katja Malmborg 